*Warning… this will be long*
I like… No, I LOVE “love quarrels”. A lot. A relationship must have quarrels. If not, something is wrong.
I decided to read the comments… Everyone seems to be against Levi’s own choice (A choice with no regrets?).
Thought I WAS NOT going to read the fic update ‘cause I knew that it wasn’t going to end well… And Lootibles (writer of the fic -did I wrote her name right?-) was going to leave me hanging yet again until next update… BUUUUT, she always does a good job with the plot twists and freaking leaves me wanting more witch was the reason I couldn’t stay away until next week with this update because I was just wanting that fight and everything that comes with it! *breaths*
I WAS CRAVING for this moment. The talk of the “lie”.
Levi was fighting for this relationship too. He was dragging Eren’s ass along the way every time something was up. Off course Levi would do it his own way.
Now why is he making it a big deal? Because he was finally feeling what he couldn’t feel with Erwin.
I’m sorry but I always keep thinking of Erwin as “the bad guy”.
Erwin didn’t told Levi this “issue”. But he told Eren. HE FUCKING TOLD EREN. But he didn’t tell Levi. He did it, like he knew that if what ever Levi and Eren had was serious or not, this simple thing would kill anything they had. Eren being the brat that he is an how insecure he was with himself, was a big piece of cake for Erwin. Erwin is always 3 steps ahead of Levi and Eren.
Why do I keep thinking Erwin is indeed the bad guy? Well let me tell you that if you have a secret ONE DOES NOT SIMPLY TELL THE SECRET KNOWING THAT THE ONE THAT ISINT MEANT TO HEAR IT IS SUPER NEAR BY (he could be. Behind the door … And security cameras that are fail checked). I mean Erwin was in one part of the fic alone with Eren and he purposely lowered his voice so Levi wouldn’t hear him, only see him and make Levi think something else was up (Erwin was making a “deal” with Eren in that part while Levi was going nuts over the fact that Erwin seemed like he was going to fuck Eren right there.). But this time Erwin diss miserly said it with out care in the world. As if he knew Levi would be hearing, baiting Eren to just say what he wanted and needed Levi to hear. Manipulating the words to make everything fall into the place he wanted… Witch is the end of those two.
It’s messy. (Best quarrels EVER)
But I just cant understand … I’m trying here, but I can’t understand why Levi wants revenge on Erwin. Why is he looking for someone that he cared about end in misery but not “hurt him like this or that”.
Ok, I get that he killed his father etc all that. But what I don’t understand is Levi’s plan. Why not simply fire him? Levi is the inheritance of the company right? He has that much power as Erwin. No?
Second… I truly think that the only way that he can truly hurt Erwin the most is by simply be happy with the new person (witch is fucking Eren!) and move on with out him(mone on with out Erwin). What can be more hurtful then seeing someone you love go with another person and totally throw you out like garbage. As if nothing you did with them even mattered.
Levi must be tired of the lies.
“Do you know what is like when your not who you want to be?
Do you know what is like to be your own worst enemy?
Who sees the things that need to get by?
Do you know what is like… To want to surrender?”
-Band Skillet(Comatose album)
“Once upon a time there was light in my life… Now is only falling apart
Nothing I can say, total eclipse of the heart”
-I don’t remember the band… But this song is old. You must know it.
Songs like these pooped in my head. Right now there are a lot of songs… I was reading this fic and I was crying while I read their words and the songs playing in my head.
Levi is making the most difficult… The most hardest choice in his life.
They are both going to suffer equally. Because Levi is hating himself right now. He wants the pain caused by Erwin to go away. And is still there. And now… He is going to deal with Eren’s blow. And Eren Doesn’t have a place to go to. They both have no home to go to.
Everyone thinks that Eren needs an accident to make them be together again. But on the contrary. If Levi is faced with a situation… Let’s say Grisha goes and takes him by surprise in Trost… And tries to kill Levi… What can be a better act of love then show Levi thru actions how much he means to him.
Right now Levi and Eren need the act of truth.
They broth love each other. And Levi is ending everything in THE most soft fitting way possible. He touched Eren… He hugged him. And he will diss miss him with much hurt in his heart.
He didn’t hit him. He didn’t slam doors. He is not going to throw him in the streets. HE IS PAYING FOR THE STAY WITH MIKASA. He will still some what take care of Eren. Some what.
But the mystery still lingers with Grisha. He will appear to fuck us all up when we least expect it. Because if Mikasa hasn’t done anything yet is because of Eren. And now there is nothing holding her back. Levi and Eren are nothing and SHE will prolly take this chance to take Eren far away as possible from Grisha like she planned in the first place but was intercepted by Levi.
I can’t wait for the next update…
I’m feeling like shit. But IDFC. It’s not a bad feeling either.